Kurasu-Bureiku

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I woke this morning again still broke, and I came up with the idea of selling all original pieces of art I own, including comic volumes and pages. But then I went through all of them and realized... I CAN'T DO IT!! My comic pages, my character designs, and ones I've illustrated are my best friends!! I can't best friends, they've been with me for so long, and we have went through a lot together! And I've always brought them along with me! 

Whenever I'm lonely, upset or start to doubt myself: My good friends Kurasu, Joule, Ryomaru, Tight, Kurowni and Yu are there to comfort me and put a smile on my face. Though you may not know the names of some these characters, I had to mention them, because they have gotten me through so much. We've battled through physical abuse, break-ups, loss of family, homelessness, hospitalization, depression, poverty...I'll end the list there before it gets too dark. 

These guys make me so happy, and I really want them to put a smile on your faces when you see them in an actual story rather than collecting dust in your basement. And in honor of the ones who have been by my side the longest, and has never given up on me. It's time for me to show them some love and draw them up!! I will be showcasing my original characters for you to see. 

Though there is no financial gain from doing any of this, it does almost make me feel like tearing up with a smile to realize that I will have people, despite them being imaginary, will always be there for me when I need them!

My previous journal was not written very well, because my friends all misinterpreted as me going through some sort of crisis. I'm not suffering from any sort of anxiety and I'm not upset about my state as an artist. When I said "I wasted 9 years of my life" and "quit comics" That simply meant I could have been concentrating something else artistic. Comics happens to be longest thing I've stuck with, but just like other things I've done I haven't really excelled at it. I made the last journal in order to see how many people think I "should" do, didn't mean I "would" do what you guys think I "should" do. I appreciate you guys caring enough to give me advice, but as a follow up as to me not being as confident and popular as you think, I'm also not as dumb as you think. I know full well what I'm getting myself into and what I'm doing. Hope that clears some things...hopefully :/

I feel very passionate about the new Cowboy Shark reboot,  but the issue is: it will cost me a lot of money, I apologize for asking anyone to help me with it financially in the past.                       I know you guys don't care about it as much as I do, but I am going to ask one request of anyone reading; should I spend the cash needed to fund this myself or don't bother. I am asking, because you are the ones who will be reading, but note that this will put me in a financial pickle, also if I fail I don't know if I'll continue comics. My self-esteem isn't as high as people think, nor as popular, and I don't know if I should continue to pour all my time into something that's not getting me anywhere, and it would be rough on me if I quit, because that means I would have wasted 9 years of my life, and it would just confirm how much of a talentless failure I am. So spend the money yes or no?